and I will only do it on here cause to say this on Facebook would start way more drama than I care to have in my life. However, I need to say it so this is the best outlet.

I truly wish all I had to care about today was my friends in the grade above me graduating and moving up a grade. I wish what I was going to wear every day was the most difficult decision I had to make in a day.  I wish that my biggest worry in life still revolved around wondering if some cute guy even knew I existed.  

What I actually have to care about today is paying my bills.  Pay for my mission trip, look to see if the other two checks I wrote have gone through, calculate out my student loans… The decisions I make every day have to do with my future.  Like finding an apartment to live in that I can afford come September.  (Side note: One bedroom apartments in Sterling Heights/Troy run about $700 a month easy.)  My biggest worry is wondering if I am making the right decisions about my future.  Wondering if I will continue to love what I think I will for a career.  Plus, lets add the $20,000 its going to cost me to find out for 11 months.  Then add on to that about $5,000 I owe for thinking that college was right for me.  (Another side note: It’s not.)  

I wish I still had the same status’ as you, I do.  I did at one point in my life but what I am so thankful for is that I don’t anymore.  Yes, life is easy where you are now and life isn’t such a piece of cake where I am now but I’m so glad I’ve moved on.  I might not have wanted to come back home and I’m remembering why already, but I have to say thank you. Thank you for reminding me why I work so hard to get where I want to go so I don’t have to come back here.

(Last side note, I promise: I’m pretty sure I had a shorter but similar post a year ago on this same topic.)

pound down out of ten. but it won’t be a victory until I’m down at least 5 cause I fluctuate up and down a few pounds depending on the day and what I eat so I’m still not happy with just one pound. No worries, I’m doing it the right way though by eating healthier and exercising although I did not exercise today cause my body hurt too much from yesterday so I’m going to push myself tomorrow!!!

life is good :)

any happier? Weeeellllllllllllllllllll, probably not! This weekend was great but this weekend will be even better and I can’t wait til Wednesday!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaandddd I’ll just leave it at that. Short and sweet :)

I fucking hate you

:)